Don’t take the Holy Spirit for granted, like Saul or Sampson. Suddenly you can find yourself doing your own will, and not that of God, and His spirit can depart from you.
We see people walking the streets out of their mind and we think or ascribe to them that it may be drugs or alcohol, but did you ever think that it just could be that the Holy Spirit has departed from them?
The Lord gives us a sound mind; and apart from God there is no Peace and only existence in a tormented state that only God can pardon us from. If I were you, I would beg His Pardon and that pardon is granted by the one and only Jesus Christ.